confusing, annoying, and so najis

HOLA I'm getting away from my orientation task, which is...... making an analysis of the direction and rotation speed of motor dc with IC L293D. what is that? that is, shit. I got into this department by accident. and Im still hoping that this accidental destiny will lead me somewhere...... because I'm completely blind, if we're talking about electronical electrical things, AND THAT IS EXACTLY THE AREA WHERE I AM GONNA BE STANDING ON FOR 4 YEARS AHEAD, department of electrical engineering, which is now kind of a hell to me. no, its not that bad actually. I still can handle this. with the power of the moon, I will punish you, physics.

SO just wish me luck. I'm in the best university in the country, fortunately. and that is something!

yoohoo

ergh, i always feel so sick everytime I read my own writings. I dont know, they are just incredibly terrible. I should practice more often.

anyway. I'M GOING TO COLLEGE. yes. finally. after a series of disgusting rejections. you know, I failed in getting into my dream college, ITB. I tried to get there twice and I got rejected, twice. Seeing my friends have got accepted in their desired university that time, it felt..... I dont know. I tried to feel happy for them but the jealousy just kept coming and haunting me :''0 I walked out of twitter and facebook (but not plurk) and then I was rejected again, twice, by Unpad and UNS. In the middle of my deadly sorrow, my mother kept telling me not to just surrender to those shits happening. then I tried to have one more entrance test, SIMAK UI, which was really famous of being SO hard to pass. but voila I made it. I'm a yellow guy! I'll study computer engineering. And yeah UI's rank is above ITB's. I went back saying hi to twitter and yeah I still felt not right because some of my friends still had not got their aimed universities.

okay. I dont know if I should be excited to be a student of the-second-best-university-in-Indonesia but you know....... it still feels so hard to realize that I'm not in ITB and (no offense) my friends whose achievements are under mine are happily there. I dont know, they seem like just getting their places effortlessly. Im not saying that I'm not grateful and stuff but yeaaaa you know what I mean, to have such a dream to get into a college and not get it at the end. I still can try next year though...... but I dont think it will happen. I should think of the money my parents have spent for UI things.

and on Saturday I will start having an activity in UI. We, Maba (Mahasiswa Baru, or New College Students) are meant to sing for our graduating seniors on graduation day. and on Saturday we will start practicing. then on 12 I will get through ospek ergh. For you who dont know, Ospek, or orientation for new students, in Indonesia is rather identical to assasination (no, just kidding) but yeaah its like, being scolded by seniors, having given bunch of tasks with a very tight deadline. and to me, it kills, although I kinda enjoyed being treated like that (?) (you wont understand)

well.......... just wish me luck cause I need to try to learn to love my new surroundings. Bye! happy fasting!